i have a problem with starting things
i like doing things like playing video games, reading books etc. but it sometimes feels like starting to do them is a gargantuan task. i know i will enjoy them once i start doing them. and i know the thing i am doing —passing time doing nothing but surfing online, checking the same messaging apps over and over again with no new messages, watching pointless videos that i don't really care about— is going to give me less fulfillment and less enjoyment than the thing i actually want to be doing yet i continue with it.
i don't have an idea to fix this. i could possibly make the fulfilling hobbies have less friction to start and at the same time putting barriers on time wasters. being aware of it feels like a good first step as well.
this whole thing feels like a shower —once you are in it, it's the nicest most relaxing thing ever. but you need to get inside first.